Such a Genuine Delight

Take delight in the Lord , and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Psalms 37:4 NIV

Why this verse?

I looked up in Google about dreaming big and having life goals, and I found Psalms 37:4. 

Looking in the verse itself, it is to take delight or find "happiness" in the Lord and surely He will give us the desires of our heart.

Before I came to know the Lord, I was (I still am!) a big, big dreamer. I wanted to become a lawyer, soldier, get my Master's degree, my Doctorate degree, to travel the world, everything! I was a self-proclaimed talented and intelligent person. I believed in myself so much that I can do all of these things by my own perseverance and hard work.

I always was in the trend! And I always make small headlines. I do cover songs, cover dances, poetry, accomplishments at work, I usually get all the praises and I became used to it.

Then by the year 2015 I became born again. I have decided to make Jesus my Lord and Savior. A lot has changed in me! As I have said in my first blog, I am now a new creation!

Jesus changed me! In a span of a month from that decision, little changes have been noticed by a friend. Everyday until this very hour I am more and more becoming a changed person.

I must say I changed for the better. From being loud and attention-seeking, I became a low profile person. From being a woman with profanity, I became careful in choosing my words. From being a flirt, I became pure and repentant. From being a drunkard, I became filled with the Spirit of God instead of the spirit of liquor.

Wow, just wow - the levels of these desriptions. Who would have thought I was that person? Even me, myself, as I read my writings, I am amazed! If these changes were from my own efforts? I don't think so! I don't think I can change that easy. All of these, I give all credits to the Lord.

However, as I go through the phases of life changes, some are not that impressed. Even myself! I have reservations sometimes. Why? Because I gave up the world. I was once called "kill joy" just because I cannot be with them anymore and join them in their activities. I also became insecure of myself because I cannot just do everything when I feel like it. I always tend to hold back and choose the less evil, which is less adventurous. I relate this to the whole chapter 37 of Psalms.

However, as Psalms 37:4 reminds, I always - always take delight in the Lord and find the happiness according to His will, not to impress people, but to impress Him instead. To this, I claim His promise - that He will give me the desires of my heart.

The desires of my heart? Well, it is to always please Him, and everything will follow (include my Doctorate degree here 😅)! Genuine happiness will always be obvious in my life because of Him.

Praises, glory and honor is to Jesus alone!

- meliza e.